Monday, November 19, 2012

Relationships

I'm pretty sure I've referred to relationships in this blog before, but I'm going to do it again, so deal with it.

Relationships...are just confusing.  All around.  Confusing. Friends, more than friends, not even friends, coworkers, family, it doesn't matter, relationships are just confusing.

The particular relationship I'm speaking of is a friendship I have with a female.  Now, it's not anything serious at all, just putting that out there.  It's just that I don't know what to think of the interactions I do have with this individual.

Here's the background story:

I was sitting at work a few evenings ago (on the computer of course) and I had a status on Facebook.  I'm just going to stop for a second and say life would be so much easier if there was more personal interactions instead of interactions over technology.  Anyway, this particular person, who I went to high school with, commented on my status, and we went back and forth for a bit, and then she pops me up on messenger and just gives me her phone number.  At first, I just thought "Cool, I got a number."  I didn't really think much of it, but then I started thinking more and more about it and here I am, confused.

I'm not trying to get all crazy over this or anything, but it just seemed really weird to me.  I had very little interaction with this person when I was in high school because she is a couple years younger than me and she gave me her number based on what?  That's what I don't understand and why I am so confused.  WHY?  What made her decide she was going to give me that number and tell me to text her?

I'm probably over-thinking the whole thing, but I like to think about things like this.

Relationships.

Well, that's all the story I have for you tonight.  Until next time, maybe it was the blue pill?

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

You Better Enjoy This

I decided I would throw up a post quick even though it is almost 4 am here.

I've been really busy lately. I'm in the middle of corn harvest on our family farm and taking 19 credits in college this semester so I haven't had much time to post anything.

It's been a crazy semester so far.  The first few weeks weren't bad, but now that I am trying to juggle 40 plus hours a week of work with 19 credits of school, I barely have time to sleep, let alone think.  Hopefully we'll be done with harvest next week though, and I can go back to a healthy mixture of school and booze.

I don't know who even reads these posts, but obviously someone does since I can see my blog gets views.  So I thought it would be a kind gesture to share what's happening in my life.  Nothing exciting, that's for sure.

I suppose though I should get sleep while I can.  Until next time, don't take the red pill.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Slender

Now that college has started back up again, I was bored tonight and was looking for something to do.  Lately, I've been hearing a lot about a game called Slender...

For those of you that don't know, Slender is an Indie-based game about a man named Slenderman, I guess. Basically, you start with a flashlight and have to walk around a wooded area in the dark and find 8 notes.  I got two...I'm not going to say much about this game because I didn't play it much so there's not much to say. I will say this though, I don't know what it is about the game but it is freaky as all hell.  Not like piss your pants scary, but like psychologically frightening. I'm sweating and all my muscles are tense from playing the game for all of ten minutes.

Maybe another day I will try to play it again, but for now, I'd like to sleep tonight.

Until next time, remember, "Always watches, no eyes."

Thursday, August 16, 2012

End of Days

Summer is coming to an end...

That's not all bad.  Living in a college town it's actually kind of nice when school starts up again.  Don't get me wrong, I love the summer, but it's nice having everyone back too.  The school year means actually getting to see more than just the friends that hung around town for the summer.  Also, it means many more parties and the bars will be packed again.

I hate school though.  Honestly, if it wasn't for the potential to make so much more money, I would have never gone to college.  It's not that I was ever a bad student, I just hate going.  Nonetheless, it is coming... Hopefully this will be my last semester and I will go off and do an internship next semester, and then onto the real world.

Hopefully it will be a good year for everyone that is attending some form of educational institution, but I just remembered I still have to sign up for another class.  Until next time, let the beer flow and the books open.

Sunday, August 5, 2012

Activists

These days it seems as though there is an activist group for just about everything from gay rights, guns laws, political, and the list goes on for days.  However, there is one group of individuals that really gets under my skin.  Anti-gun activists...

Coming from North Dakota, I was basically born with a gun in my hand.  By the time I was 8 years old, I already had 3 guns to my name.  Now, I could see how some people might have a problem with that, but if you teach a child how to safety and responsibly shoot a gun at a young age, that will stay with them until the day they die.

Anti-gun activists are basically trying to take gun ownership away from normal citizens. This, I have a problem with.  By no means do I think the average person should be able to own fully automatic weapons without some sort of special permit, but these people are trying to take away more than that.

I've been hunting since I was very young, since I could legally shoot and kill an animal.  Well, now this brings in a different group of activists, PETA. As far as I'm concerned, PETA can go straight to hell.  For the most part, what I use guns for is hunting.  I don't hunt just to kill animals for the hell of it.  I hunt for food.  Since I was very young I have been hunting and if I didn't hunt, that would erase at least 50 percent of the food I eat.  Although I do hunt animals I don't eat, those animals are predators of the food I do eat and predators of my family and pets.

Now, my list of guns include a BB gun, .22 rifle, paintball gun, shotgun, rifle, assault rifle, and pistol.  Are you going to try to take those all away from me?  I can tell you exactly what I use every one of those for and not one of them is used for harmful purposes.  You can argue a self-defense weapon is harmful, but if you come unwelcome into my home with intent to hurt me, my family, friends, or pets, I'm going to shoot you until I'm sure you aren't going to hurt anyone.

On the other hand, with the recent events in Aurora, Colorado, I can understand how some people would want to keep guns away from citizens.  However, you have to look at the person that was involved in this tragedy.  The guy was a mentally ill person with all the freedom in the world to buy multiple fully automatic weapons and 6000 rounds of ammunition.  The guy had issues, don't get me wrong, but he should have been red-flagged long before anything happened.  I mean really, you can't tell me his name didn't appear on some government screen with what he was buying.

To conclude this rather long rant, I have owned and been around guns my entire life and I have never shot at a person, been shot at, or been hurt in any way from a gun. If you take away guns, you're taking away my lifestyle.  Until next time, try to take my guns or my life, we'll see who comes out on top.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Stress

Stress.  People have all sorts of different triggers, levels, and remedies for stress.  What am I doing right now? Laying in my bed, by myself, writing this post, and absolutely jamming out to Zao (a metal band for those who don't know).

Maybe I shall go back a little here.  This week has been beyond stressful.  We started wheat harvest on my family farm, which I actually don't mind working on the farm, it just gets rather stressful at times.  On top of that, I had to shuffle back and forth between the farm and the liquor store because I couldn't get anyone to cover for me.  When I get stressed, I'm usually rather testy.  I've had a headache pretty much all day (mostly from the ridiculous people that come into the liquor store) and every little thing has been getting under my skin.

I'm going to stop for a second to throw this little tidbit in here.  Honestly, I don't know what happened in the last two weeks or if people finally just drank themselves stupid, but almost every other person I've had to deal with at the liquor store this week has either been completely shitfaced at 6 in the afternoon or a complete asshole.  Either way, I'm getting really fed up with it on so many levels.

Anyway, where was I? Yes, testy.  Every little thing gets under my skin.  I almost freaked out on my roommate because the house was a disaster when I got back, even though I haven't been here but 20 minutes in the last two weeks.  I settled for just going to bed and dropping it for now.  So that brings us here.  I am laying in my bed by myself and jamming to Zao because that is what I do to get rid of stress.  I don't like to be around people because when I'm stressed I get set off way to easily.  I like to lay in bed and wind down because it's the most comfortable place I know that is away from people.  Zao. Most people wouldn't find metal music relaxing or "stress relieving", but I don't think there is a better remedy for stress in the world.  Nothing calms me down more.  Actually, my headache is gone now in the 10 minutes it took me to write this.

I suppose I might actually get some sleep now, though.  Until next time, suspend suspension.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

The Number 23

If you would have asked me 3 years ago where I saw myself in 3 years, there's no way I would have thought I would be sitting here.

Today, the 19th, was my birthday and I turned 23 years old.  I never really saw myself as some 23 year old billionaire or anything crazy like that, but I definitely didn't see myself in my current position.

I am 23, single, still in school, no idea if I will even find a job in my field when I do graduate, and just unsure of life in general.  I have confidence that I will end up where I'm supposed to be eventually, but life is not coming along as quickly as I hoped.

I'm not saying I'm in any hurry to have a stable job and family, but I envisioned I would have both by now.

Maybe I'm just a little down, but having turned 23 and spending most of the day by myself makes a guy think about what he wants in life, or what he doesn't have in life for that matter.

Anyways, happy birthday to me and all others that share this date.  Until next time, party like it's 1999.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Surgery Update

I finally had surgery on my knee yesterday at about 6:00 am.  After I arrived, they got my ready to roll, put me to sleep, and when I woke up, I was about ready to walk out the door.  Yesterday was a cake walk compared to today.  Yesterday, even though my knee was sore, I was pumped full of drugs and had a direct shot of Novocaine in my knee.  Today, on the other hand, is an entirely different story.  I woke up around 2:30 this morning to some soreness, but nothing compared to now.  When I actually woke up at about 7:30, I could barely move, and even now, with hydros in my system, I'm sore as all hell. 

Hopefully everything heals up faster then expected. I don't really like laying around doing nothing.  

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Summertime

I think it's safe to say summer if finally here!

I've seen a bunch of posts and other things about "Summer Bucket Lists" and such.  Sure, there are things I want to accomplish this summer, but mostly, I want a little summer romance.  I've been single now for about 9 months and to be completely honest, I'm over being single.  Being single is a good novelty for awhile, but it's gotten to the point where I want nothing more than to be able to kiss someone goodnight and cuddle up to them and go to sleep.  I'm not saying I'm going to just settle down with the next woman that walks through my door, but I'm almost 23 and I'm ready for a steady relationship and a "marriage" type.  Maybe that sounds weird, but I've been in relationships pretty steady since I was about 15 and they never quite work out so I'm ready to settle down.  I'm ready for "the one".  Yeah, that didn't really help the whole "weird" vibe, but I speak the truth and that's what I'm giving you.

In the meantime, I just want to have fun this summer.  Maybe the perfect woman for me will just fall into my arms.

For now, I shall sleep, because I'm ridiculously tired.  I hope everyone has a great summer and until next time, don't drink the pool water.

Monday, June 4, 2012

People

You know, I never really had a problem with people until the last few years.  When I was younger and throughout high school, I could get along with just about anyone.  Now, I cannot stand half of the people I encounter on a daily basis.  I don't know what it is, I'm getting older and tolerate less, or people are just getting more stupid.  I feel as though people are getting more stupid though.

The downfall of my generation and the generation after is absolutely remarkable.  It's like people devolved into mindless morons. You can blame whatever you want on this devolution, because I don't know for sure what the cause is, I just know it is happening.  People are getting dumber by the second.

Anyway, that was just my mini-rant on people because I'm sick of them. Have a fabulous day.

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Surgery

Pretty sure I forgot to mention this, but about 2 months ago, I tore my meniscus which is the cartilage in your knee between the 2 major bones of your leg and now there is a piece of my meniscus just floating around in my knee.

Only reason I thought about this is because I had my pre-operation appointment at the doctor today so I can have surgery June 11th.

I will say this, I hope I never have to have surgery again.  It's not that I am scared or worried to have surgery, but the pre-op questions asked by the doctor made me feel like I broke the law and the FBI was after me and investigating me.  The doctor asks so many questions and most of them just made me feel uncomfortable.

Anyway, that's what's happening in my life.  I forgot to mention it when it first happened because I didn't have a computer at the time.  I'll tell you what, worst pain I've ever experienced in my life.

June 11th I am having surgery, so hopefully that date will hurry and and get here so I can get my knee fixed and start going things I actually enjoy without pain again.

Until next time, don't eat the yellow snow.

Monday, May 28, 2012

Roommates

In a way, having roommates is like having a relationship.  There's that awkward beginning stage where you learn everything new about them, usually things that disgust you or make you wish you hadn't put yourself in that situation to begin with.  There's the clinger stage where you do absolutely everything together.  Then there's the breakup.

Living in a house with 4 guys for the last 2 years has been an experience and then some. Recently, last night actually, three of us decided it was time for our other roommate to leave.  It's been a work in progress for the last few months, but we finally decided to tell him he had to go.  To my surprise, I came home today and he had most of his stuff moved out.  I thought great!  I don't need to do anything and he's finally moving out.  With further inspection, I found that he decided to take along a bunch of stuff that wasn't his.  This is where the relationship aspect comes into play.  I felt like he was just a crazy girlfriend you wanted to break up with but were worried about how they would react.  Would he just pack his stuff up and leave or burn the house down in a fit of rage? It was up in the air for awhile there.  However, we're still trying to get all our stuff back, not very willingly I might add.  Although we have his part of the initial deposit that he wants, he's still being difficult in giving the stuff back.

I should add, as I mentioned before, I am very OCD.  All of my stuff has it's place and I don't care if it's been there 5 minutes or 5 years, I know when it's been moved.  For him to think he was going to get away taking a bunch of my shit was an absurd thought to say the least.  For those that know me well, they know I don't get upset easily, and I'm actually not that upset about this whole situation, just minutely frustrated.  However, I also know I control if he gets his money or not and there is not a damn thing he can do about that which gives me great satisfaction.

I really needed to say something about this whole situation.  I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders now that he's gone and it feels great!  We have a new roommate moving in on the first of the month that has been my friend for a few years so it should be a good change of pace.  Until next time, stay classy.

Friday, May 25, 2012

I'm Back

I've been majorly slacking on putting up any kind of post in the last few weeks.  This is due to the fact that I no longer have a computer at my disposal...The university I attend gives computers to all full time students and since the end of the semester I have not had a computer and that's that.

As I was saying, the semester of college is over, thank goodness.  As for the summer, lots of beer and fun is in the foreseeable future.  Being it could very well be my last summer in North Dakota, I want to make the best of it.

Not a whole lot else has been going on since I last posted. I'm still single, which sucks, and I'm over being single now.  Call it whatever you want, since school has ended I've really been girlfriend-minded.  No such luck so far.

Until another day, or possibly later tonight since I've been so absent from my blog, I'm off.

Friday, April 20, 2012

Happy 4/20

Happy 4/20!!!

I'm going to make a bold statement here and say this will be the last year marijuana will be illegal in the United States.  Whether you're against marijuana or not, the legalization of this "drug" is coming sooner or later.

Assuming the world doesn't end this year (haha), I believe by 4/20/2013 marijuana will be legalized nationwide.

So for everyone out there celebrating, Happy 4/20! Have a wonderful day.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

I Love You

Such simple words to say when you don't mean it, but when you do, it's entirely different.  I've said these words before and have meant them, sometimes it doesn't work out, but there may be only one person I would take it back from.

Which bring me to my main point.  There has been a woman that I have had my eye on for some time.  By no means do I love her, I mean it's not a phrase I take lightly, but there is something about her.  I don't know what it is about her, but just the thought of her drives me crazy.  She's pretty, seems cool, but there is something else, something I can't quite put my finger on, that just drives me wild.

You could say she's been somewhat of a crush of mine, ever since I met her she's always kind of been in the back of my mind.

Here lies the problem...

I've talked to her, quite a bit actually, but I've never told her how I really feel about her.  How do you tell a woman like that how you really feel?  I've been through my share of failed relationships and I hate rejection, but is being rejected better than not trying at all?

Maybe one day I'll work up the courage, and maybe I should just tell her right now...but we shall see what the future holds.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

December 21, 2012

I know there is much speculation around this date, but I want to know what YOU think is going to happen on this (soon to be) historic day.

The thought that one day it will be historic gives you a hint of what I think.  I think we will survive to see December 22, 2012, well, some of us anyway.

I think that fateful day will be nothing more than hype, just like Y2K.  The day will be talked up so much and over hyped that people will be prepared for the worse.  People will riot, loot, and whatever else they need to do on their last day on Earth.  That is exactly what I think is going to happen, just people killing each other and destroying everything around them until they all realize that nothing catastrophic is going to happen.

Almost everything that has been speculated about December 21 has been proven to be false for the most part, but what do YOU think is going to happen?  Is it going to be the end of the world?  Is it going to be some miraculous event that will change the world forever?  Or will it just be nothing, nothing but hype?

The day is coming closer, and before we know it, it will be here.  How are you going to prepare?

Friday, April 13, 2012

Friday the 13th

Today is Friday the 13th...

I know I've mentioned my superstitions before, but I want to know what other people think of this mysterious day.

To me, I don't know what Friday the 13th really means, but being as superstitious as I am, I don't like this day very much.  Even though to most people, it's just another normal Friday, go to work, go home, celebrate another week done, I have a different feeling.  I don't know if it's just the lore behind the day, or the number 13 itself, but I get a really eerie feeling on this day and I make sure to be extra cautious.

Enough about me, I want to know what do you think about this day?  Is Friday the 13th just another day to you, or is it something more?

Unfortunately, I have to work until midnight tonight, when I would rather just sit in my house and do nothing tonight.


So tell me, what do you think of Friday the 13th and what are you doing on this day?

How you doing?

Does anyone even read these posts?

I know someone has viewed my blog 75 times, but is anyone really even reading what I'm writing.  I'm not really concerned, as I have mentioned before, because this is more of a way to get things off my mind and just share what's going on in my life.  However, I am interested to know who reads these posts and what they think.

Here's the mission for tonight, if you read this, tell me how you're doing, how your day was, what you're doing, whatever you want to comment, really.  Tell me something.  Deal?

I hope everyone is having a wonderful night, I shall check back with you all soon. Goodnight.

Monday, April 9, 2012

Family Strong

I have returned back to North Dakota from our family trip to Colorado.  I must say, I am glad to be home again and able to sleep in my own bed.  However, it is never easy to leave my family in Colorado.  I don't cry very often, but I have a hard time watching other people cry, especially my mom.  When I see my mom cry, it's almost impossible to keep my eyes from tearing up.  Maybe it's because I've always been a mommy's boy and seeing her cry means I know she's hurting in some way.  My brother and his wife gave her the first two and only grandchildren she has and it is always hard for her to leave them as it is for all of us.  The entire way home she was just looking at pictures and videos from the trip over and over again.  I know that we will all see each other soon though and that's what pulls us all through.

We have always been a pretty close family.  If something is happening in one of our lives, it affects all of our lives.

While we were all down in Colorado, my sister received a text from a friend that is currently in the hospital due to prenatal complications.  She is doing fine, just has to remain in the hospital for the remaining weeks of her pregnancy.  In the text she wrote how our family deserves a medal because we made a 1600 mile round trip to Colorado to be there for the birth of Carter.  She goes on to say how she has been in the hospital for five days and none of her in-laws have come to see her even though they live within 100 miles of the hospital.

My entire family listened as my sister read the texts aloud and you could tell by the shock on all of our faces that this thought had never crossed our minds.  We basically packed and flew to Colorado at the drop of a dime.  A medal might be an exaggeration, but that's how our family is.  We're there for each other, no questions asked.

With Easter weekend winding down, I just want to say love your family.  You might not always see eye to eye, but they are your family and they always will be.  I love all of my family and I honestly don't think I would even be alive today if it wasn't for all of them.

Here's a couple of more photos from our trip.  Hope everyone will take some of what I said to heart.

Kisses from Alexis for Uncle Brock.

Alexis welcoming her brother Carter to the world with some kisses.

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Happy Easter

Hello Everyone, another short post, but I felt it was as good of a day as any to post again since it IS Easter.

Some exciting news for my family.  Yesterday, at 8:45 am, my brother and his wife welcomed my new nephew into the world, Carter Huntley.  We are all very thankful to have this new addition to our family and especially thankful that we could all be present in Colorado for the birth.

There is some question as to how my niece Alexis will handle having a little brother around the house.  Yesterday at the hospital she said she loved him but I don't think she completely understands that the baby is coming home with them, forever.

Anyways, I hope everyone is having a wonderful Easter, especially college students, like myself, whom get an extended weekend. :)

Here's a few photos of Carter and the rest of my family.

Cheese!

Where Alexis wanted to nap.

Carter.

Alexis holding Carter.

Coloring Easter eggs.

The final product.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

Back in the CO

I'm going to keep this pretty brief because it's been a long day and it's already 1:00 am, but I'm back in Colorado!

Even though I was just here less than a month ago, my family all flew back down to Colorado to see the rest of our family.  Also, my brother and sister-in-law are expecting their second child (a boy) to be delivered via c-section on Saturday morning.

So that's my story for now, maybe I'll throw up another post once the baby is born and we have pictures.  For now though, hope everyone has a great Easter, if you're into that kind of thing, and goodnight to all.

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Spring Break 2012

Hello again everyone (or the few that read this stuff).  It's been awhile but for good reason.

Recently, over Spring Break from college, I traveled the marvelous 14 hour drive from my current position in North Dakota to Colorado to visit my family there.  I don't know if I've mentioned before but my brother (Jason), his wife (Nancy), and my niece (Alexis), live in Colorado Springs, while my sister (Heather) and her husband (Erik) live in Castle Rock.

I thought about writing something while I was down there but I figured I would just wait until another date and not worry about it too much.

Anyway, I had a blast in Colorado, as I always do, and enjoyed greatly seeing my family.

I wasn't really sure what I was going to do this year for Spring Break since last year I had a girlfriend to take along.  However, at the last minute I decided to pack up and make the drive.  In all reality, I enjoyed the drive more by myself than with anyone else.  It gave me almost 28 hours of driving just to lose myself in the music and terrain, which was actually really nice.

When I got to Colorado, it was a pretty relaxed Spring Break.  I didn't have any plans really, since I've seen pretty much all of the "touristy" things down there.  I just packed what I needed and left.  I spent about 5 days a piece at my brother's and sister's houses.  Since it's only about an hour drive between the two it wasn't too bad to drive back and forth.

It was really nice just to sit and relax with my siblings and their spouses and probably the best part, seeing my niece, Alexis, almost the whole 10 days.  She is really something else and definitely never a dull moment when she's around.

Other than that, like I said, it was pretty relaxed.  We went out to eat a few times, my brother and I spent a day at Dragonman's shooting range, grilled outside, played games, and had some good bonding time.

In about a week, the rest of my family from North Dakota, including my other sister and her husband, my mom, and my dad, will be flying to Colorado in anticipation of my new nephew who is due April 5th.  All I can say is, at least this time we're flying.

So in a week, hopefully I will have a new nephew and little brother to Alexis'.  That shall be interesting since Alexis will almost be 2 years old when the new baby arrives.  Trust me, I've asked my brother a few times what he was thinking when they planned that one out.

I'm going to attach a couple of photos from my trip on here and when I get some videos from the trip on YouTube I will definitely link them to a post, also.

For now, it's bedtime...

Coloring the dirt with a stick.

Just like daddy. :)

Sunset from my sister's backyard.

Monday, March 5, 2012

Superstitions

Most of you probably don't know this, but I'm really superstitious.  Along with OCD and probably a list of other things that are wrong with me, but right now, we'll stick to superstitious.  

My last post was the thirteenth post.  (I don't even like typing that by the way.)  I tried to ignore it.  I tried to deny that the number had any meaning whatsoever, but I just can't shake the feeling.

This all started when I was playing high school basketball.  Everyone has some sort of rituals and being in basketball, it was a little more intense than just your morning routine.  It started with free throws.  I've had the same free throw routine since I was a freshman in high school and I'm a senior in college now using that routine when I go play in the gym a couple of times a week.  From the free throw routine, it just kept spreading.  I started to develop other routines also, from tying my shoes before games, what I ate, what I wore, etc.

After I graduated, I didn't have basketball to contain my rituals anymore.  This is where the OCD comes into play.  For those who don't know what OCD is, it's Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.  I've never had anyone with the right college degree tell me that I have OCD, but I'm assuming if they were to hear everything I do, they would probably say I have a problem.

I'm not entirely sure where the OCD officially started, but before I knew it, I had a routine for everything, showering, brushing my teeth, setting my alarm, all sorts of little things.  After that, it developed in other things, mostly aligning everything I own.  For example, just on the table next to me, my pop is aligned, my phone and controller are aligned, and I just shut off the TV making sure it was on volume 11.  I always leave my car stereo on volume 15 when I shut it off, always align my shoes in the perfect spot when I take them off, and well, the list could probably continue for awhile but you get the idea.

Sure, there are times when I wish I could just shut the TV off without worrying about the volume, or set my pop down without thinking about what direction it is facing.  It actually bugs me sometimes.  On the other hand, I don't think I've lost or misplaced anything in at least a couple of years unless someone moved it without my knowledge.  You see, when everything you own has a certain spot you want it and a certain way you want it there, it's kind of hard to forget where that spot it.  Let's take my car keys as an example.  I always put my car keys in the exact same spot.  I know what you're thinking, "well yeah so do a lot of people", but I bet you don't sit there for at least a couple minutes and align all of the keys perfectly and make sure they are flipped the right way.  Yeah, I didn't think so.  

It's not all OCD all the time.  Because I'm very superstitious, it sometimes makes my OCD worse.  There are 13 steps in the house I live in right now, I absolutely refuse, under any circumstance, to step on all 13 steps.  I almost threw out my back carrying my dresser to my room when we moved in because I didn't want to step on all the steps.  I see the number 13 at least 5 times every day.  It may be weird to many people, but I feel better at the end of the day if I don't step on all the steps.

To conclude, I probably wouldn't have posted again so soon, but because my last post was the thirteenth post, I couldn't shake that feeling and needed to post again to get rid of it.  Maybe I'm wrong, and 13 is actually a lucky number, but I'm not going to push my luck.

Friday, March 2, 2012

Some People's Children

Lately, I've grown more and more tired of people.  It just seems like people today are so ridiculously stupid.  Not only that, they don't know how stupid the things they do and say sound.

This strong feeling of hatred I am beginning to experience is based on the kind of people I see and work with at the liquor store I work at.  I mean sure, I see and interact with plenty of intelligent people and actually have conversations with them about what ever may come up.  I guess I'm not entirely saying people I interact with that don't fit in the previous group are stupid by any means.  However, some of them are, others are lazy, and more yet are just annoying.  I'm rambling too much about people tonight, but I am in a rather hateful mood.

There have always been people that just push my buttons, but being the mellow person I am I usually just shake it off and smile until that person is out of sight and then explode.  This will soon change if people don't change.  I mean, a guy can only take so much, right?

I'll throw an example out there of people that just really push my buttons.  There is an older lady, comes in just about every day and buys a 6 pack of beer.  She's nice enough.  It's not that she's rude that pushes my buttons.  What really angers me is the fact that I watch her walk back and forth from her apartment across the street to the bar next door at least 6 times every day.  Once she gets her fill of free drinks over there, she walks into the liquor store and tells me to get the 6 pack for her.  Okay, I'm not a major dick and going to get upset to an older woman for asking me to grab beer for her, but after she pays, she takes the beer, walks back to her apartment, and then usually goes back to the bar.  This lady has to walk at least 20 blocks back and forth from the bar to her apartment every day, and she can't walk 10 more feet to grab her own beer?

Maybe that does make me sound like a dick, but that's fine.  Think whatever you want.  The way I feel though, if you're going to drink beer, you should be able to get it and carry it yourself.

That's just one example of something that "grinds my gears" I suppose would be a good way to say it.

The biggest thing, and when I say biggest, I mean biggest, problem I have with people is one of my coworkers.  Won't mention names, but if he were to read this, he would know who I'm talking about.  This guy is by far the most worthless and lazy person I have ever worked with, if not met in my life.  We all have certain things we're supposed to do every night to close up like mopping, sweeping, stocking the cooler, etc. He usually doesn't even get out of his chair unless he absolutely has to.  This normally wouldn't bother me, be lazy if you want, but when I have to work after him and spend an hour or two doing the work that he should have already done, I have a problem with that.  For example, we got a liquor truck in last Friday, 304 cases worth of liquor.  After working the night shift and putting most of the cases away, there were about 80 cases to put away that Saturday.  This coworker worked the morning shift Saturday, about seven and a half hours.  When I came in at 4:30, there were 70 cases left yet to be put away.  In conclusion, I put away 70 cases of liquor in the same amount of time it took him to put away 10 cases, and probably had twice the customers.

I know this is getting kind of long, but I am just absolutely pissed that I am forced to work with this waste of space and need to say something before I snap, even if I am just typing it out on here.

I don't know what it is about some people, maybe it's just how they were raised.  However, the way I was raised was to work as hard as you can and you will be rewarded.  I don't understand why this worthless, lazy, and rude child is being rewarded with the same pay that I get when he does a fourth of the work I do.

Maybe one day, hopefully very soon, he will get what he deserves, and I will get what I deserve.  Until then, I will try my hardest not to verbally or physically harm anyone (harder than you think some days).

This is definitely my longest post thus far, but I feel much better expressing my frustrations and I know there are plenty of you out there that can relate.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

My First Website

Ok so it's not a website yet, but it's getting there.

This semester I am taking an HTML class and I have started creating my own website.  Right now it's just a local site on my computer but someday, it will be up and running on the world wide web.  Most likely someday a long time from now, around May.

HTML is actually pretty fun so if you're interested, the book "Sams Teach Yourself HTML and CSS in 24 Hours" would be a good place to start.  Now that I say it like that it doesn't sound like much of a class at all, but it's more of independent learning anyway.  Which doesn't make sense, since I have to pay for the class.

Anyway, that's not important.

The site is a long way from completion but I will eventually have to come up with a domain name.  That's the tricky part.  I have no idea what to call my site.  I need something catchy and something that will be found if you use google to search other things. Any comments on ideas would be appreciated, just don't sue me if I decide to use the name.

When the site is up and running, I'll make sure to link it in a post so everyone can see the finished product.

As for now, I've been working on the site for the past 3 hours before this post and is now 4 am.  So I should probably hit the hay.  Until another day, goodnight ya'll.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Long Time No See

So...It's been awhile since I've posted anything, but imagine what brings me back here on this fateful night?

Anyone?  Bueller?

Insomnia, that's what.  Not just for the lack of wanting to sleep this time though.  This time is a different story of I literally can't sleep, for fear of the person next to me in this bed will stop breathing at any given moment.

Let's go back a bit shall we?

Well, late last year I broke up with my girlfriend that I had been dating for 3 years.  Sometime after that I started hanging out progressively more with one of my other female friends.  We're not dating, but we're really good friends now what the future holds I'm not really sure.  We'll probably come back to that later.  Well it was this female's birthday today and what better way to celebrate than to get belligerently drunk right?  Well, I wasn't feel all that well and decided I didn't want to drink tonight so I showed up some time later after her and her friends had been drinking for awhile.  Well, I get here and everyone decides it is time to go home and leaves me with the highly intoxicated birthday girl.  No big deal right?  Right again Bob, except for at this point she can barely speak, let alone walk by herself.  Being the guy that I am though I was trying to help her sober up and get her in bed etc.  However, she wants none of this.  She is responding to my help like a 2 year old who wants a new damn toy and you tell them they can't have it.  After much time arguing and fighting her to at least sit down, I finally get her to drink some water and go to bed.

And here we are...sitting here blogging and trying to occupy my time until I can safely say I can sleep.  I don't know if you could really call this insomnia since I am kind of choosing to stay awake this time, but I doubt I would be sleeping anyways so we'll just stick with the insomnia.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Insomnia...strikes again.

Ever since I was very young, I have always been a night owl.  Staying up at late as I want, sleeping in until the last possible second in the morning.  When I was young, I would stick my head outside the door to my room and watch whatever my older brother, Jason, was watching through a gap between the wall and our lazy-boy recliner.  Sooner or later, my mom would look downstairs and yell at me to go to bed until I would actually go to bed an hour later or so.

Fast forward to today...It's 3:52 am, I'm watching Breaking Bad on Netflix, and not a sign of sleep coming anytime soon.  After a certain age, about the time I started college, being a night owl takes on a whole new meaning.  Insomnia.  When I was younger staying up until 10 or 11 pm wasn't that big of a deal, but now, It's 5 or 6 am in the morning.  When I was a freshman in college, my roommate and I would stay up until 6 am every morning, go to class, maybe take a couple hour nap, and do it all over again.  I don't know how we ever survived, but we did.

As I near the age of 23 this summer, I'm starting to wonder how much longer my body can take this.  I mean, I can already tell I'm not as young as I used to be judging by the aching of every joint in my body from playing basketball this weekend.  However, I don't see my ways of an insomniatic slumber changing anytime soon.  I'll sleep in one day, go to bed early the next, but sooner or later I always end up right where I am now, wide awake at what is now 4:00 am.

I suppose sooner or later I will have to accept the fact it is time to grow up and get a grown up job that requires me to work 9-5 five days a week and will become one of those people that is in bed by 10 at night and awake by 7 in the morning.  Until then though, I'll keep living the college life.  

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Just Blowing Smoke in a Glass

For anyone that doesn't know this, I am REALLY into making and sharing YouTube videos.  With people like RayWilliamJohnson and FPSRussia on YouTube, it seems like a relatively easy way to make some free money.  Let me tell you though, it's not as easy as it looks.

Back in 2004 I created an account and posted a video that got quite a few views.  A couple years later, I received an email about a program that pays you to put advertisements on your YouTube videos.  I thought, "Well that's awesome, sure why not?"  Since then I have become a little more than obsessed with YouTube and now have about 35 videos.

I guess when I found out you could make money from YouTube I jumped at the idea, especially after learning RWJ and FPSRussia make well over six figures a year.  I thought it would be great to not have to work a day in the real world.  Was I ever wrong.

6 months later I am up to $2.50 revenue from my videos...

Being in my senior year of college in North Dakota, time is running out for a get rich quick scheme or winning the lottery.

I enjoy many different activities and hobbies as I have mentioned previously, but working a job every morning for the rest of my life is not one of those things.  I like way to many others things to be stuck in a cubicle forever.  However, school may be good for one thing.  Today one of my professors told me my assignment for the semester would be to develop a website of something I like and get it up and running.  I immediately thought of this blog, YouTube, and every other piece of content I have posted on the internet.  I don't know why it never crossed my mind but I never even thought to put all of that content on one page and organize it so it is all sexy and user appealing.

Anyway, I describe myself as an entrepreneur before anything else (mostly because I don't like any of my other college jobs).  That is kind of why the title of this post is "Just Blowing Smoke in a Glass", because most of the time I post content on the internet I feel as if no one is looking or listening.  Also, for another reason, but I'll get to that in a minute.  Consider this post a informal introduction to the future content you will be seeing from me on the internet until I get my site up and running.

As for now, I'm just blowing smoke in a glass. --> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OFsU3swGg8U

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Repeat after me: I am free.

The United States of America is "the land of the free and the home of the brave" but do you really feel free after you think about that statement.

I am free.

I have been an American citizen my entire life and I couldn't be happier with being given the opportunity to live in this country.  However, today is January 17, 2012.  Think back as far as you can remember, 10 years, 20 years, 50 years.  Do you still feel "free" today?

With the rise of legislation in our wonderful government to try to abolish piracy on the internet, I am beginning to wonder how free this country really is.  Telling us what we can and can't do on the internet, one of the biggest freedoms we have.  I know it's nothing compared to other countries.  However, I have been told my entire life to support our government and armed forces because they are fighting for and supporting our freedom.  I say bullshit.  I support the idea that our armed forces want to fight for our country. I do not support our government creating that need.  Every year there is a new law that takes away a little more of our freedom.  How long will it be before we are programmed to do exactly what our government tells us?  Oh wait...

Sunday, January 8, 2012

North Dakota: Born and Raised

I've had about enough of this.

I am a true North Dakotan.  I was born here, raised here, and still live here.  To tell you the truth, I will probably never leave this state.  The only circumstance that would incline me to leave this state was if I received a job offer elsewhere that involved much more money than a job I would receive here.

I lived in the same house from the time I was born until I was 18 and graduated and moved to college.  I go to college 30 minutes from my home town.  I know some of you think that is probably really lame and that I'm just scared to grow up and move away, but I'm really not.  I love to travel whenever I can.

The point of this post is the never-ending bitching I hear from people in this town.  I love living here.  It's calm, relaxing, and provides me with anything and everything I enjoy.  However, there are people that are in the same boat as me.  They have lived here their entire life.  Unlike me though, they take every opportunity to complain about it.  All I ever hear is how much this town and state sucks.  It's really frustrating.  I don't live here because I have to.  I live here because I want to.  I love North Dakota.  To those who complain, I always say why don't you leave then?  Nobody is making you stay here.  They never do though.  They just keep complaining.  So here it is...North Dakota has it's drawbacks, just like any other place you could live, but I think I am a much better person having grown up here.  If you don't like it, get the hell out!

Randy Blythe for President!!!

I wasn't going to throw up another post right now...until I came across a very interesting fact.

I'm a huge metal music fan and one of my favorite bands is Lamb of God.  The lead singer being Randy Blythe.  The man is a music God.

While I was out and about last night with my friends, a friend (who is also a metal fan) mentioned an interesting fact to me that Randy Blythe wanted to run for President of the United States...At first I was thinking, "Yeah, I'm sure.  Why would Randy Blythe run for President?"

So, as I was sitting here half buzzed in the wee hours of the morning, I decided to put a little more research into this.  I came across this  http://randonesia.tumblr.com/post/15251001685/i-want-to-be-the-big-cheese

Holy shit was about the first thought that came into my mind.  After reading the entire post, I'm not entirely positive he is legitimately going to run for President, but I don't think that really matters.  Randy is throwing out some heavy-hitting statements to our government.  Put up or shut up basically.  Even if he's not going to run, he's saying things that will make people think about the person they are voting for.  The whole reason I began my search for this article was because of a YouTube video of some fuckwad  presidential candidate (I don't even remember his name to be honest) that stated he would send all the troops back overseas if he were elected.  WTF!

Blythe mostly talks about war and confrontation that we are currently going through and how he would take a bullet, go to the front lines, and even kill before he would risk the lives of others.  That takes some balls.  To summarize, he basically said if the President isn't willing to die themselves for a confrontation they believe in, then why should they risk the lives of people they don't even know for the same confrontation?  If a leader is willing to risk the lives of others in a war, they better be willing to die themselves.

Even if this "presidential campaign" isn't a serious one, Blythe's statements were very serious.  A major shout out to current and future Presidents in my opinion.

I stand behind what Blythe has to say about the war and our military, and even though I worship the ground he walks on, I wouldn't vote for him on that basis alone.  I'm not a mindless American that finds one thing they like about a presidential candidate and votes for them.  However, these statements put Blythe much higher on my ratings than other candidates and I am very curious to see where he takes this from here and where he stands on other US issues.  For now though, I shall wait and see...

Bring some BALLS to the White House.  Randy Blythe for President!

Friday, January 6, 2012

Quiet People Have the Loudest Minds

It's amazing how a single phrase can spark an entire idea.

I was browsing my most recent fascination in a site call 9gag.com, when I stumbled upon this quote. "Quiet people have the loudest minds." - Stephen Hawking.

Normally, I don't pay attention to quotes all that much because really, how many do I need to read about love that have the exact same meaning.  We get it, love is precious, mysterious, etc. etc., but when I read this quote by Hawking, I really took a liking to it.

As I have said in the past, I am not one for words, especially if you don't know me.  I prefer to express myself in other ways. Music, writing, and other art forms my ADD is interested in that day.  If you've known me a day, you'll be lucky to get a full sentence out of me.  A year, I won't shut up until you are ready to commit me to an insane asylum, which is probably a good place for me anyways.

Anywho, back to the quote.  "Quiet people have the loudest minds."
Let me think about this for just a second...Okay, I've never been one for words. Ever. I often tell me friends and loved ones, "You wouldn't last five minutes in my head."  This statement is so... scary as it is...true.  Quiet as I am, my mind is an uncontrollable machine.  Often propelling at a rate that I can't even keep up with.  I'm not saying I'm a genius, or even smart for that matter, but I would say my brain is...unique?...Maybe that's not the right word, but it doesn't matter at this point.  I have two close friends in my life.  I have plenty of friends, don't pity me, but two CLOSE friends.  If you were to be present when all three of us were together, your head would literally explode.  This is why I am so quiet around people I don't know.  I'm not really sure if they could handle the frequency at which my brain operates.  (I know that sounds like I'm knocking the average person and calling people stupid, but in this case I'm not. Promise I'll get to that another day.  I know there are people out there much smarter than me.)  I am simply saying, we are extremely different individuals that think unlike any other people in the world.  This is why we are such good friends and the reason I can actually have conversations with them.  It's like we all have the same brain.  Although we are three of the quietest individuals in a group of people, alone, or in our minds, we are the loudest.

Stephen Hawking said it the best with his quote, just because someone is quiet, doesn't mean they don't have a voice and something to say.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Looky Lous

Some of you are probably wondering what a Looky Lou is, while others are really wondering how the term relates to anything. So let me begin...

First, I work in a liquor store, as I have so mentioned before.  There is a lot to look at in a liquor store so the occasional browser is acceptable.  However, those are not the type of people I'm talking about. I'm not talking about someone that walks into a liquor store and looks around at things they might like for 20 minutes until they decide what they finally want to purchase.  I'm talking about people that walk in, look at EVERYTHING in the store for 30 or more minutes, and then purchase nothing.  Being the kind person I am, I will ask customers if they need help finding anything or want suggestions on anything they might enjoy.  Looky Lous, they will always answer with, "No thanks, I'm just looking."  This answer is fine until you've been in the store for 20 minutes and we closed 10 minutes ago.  Then, we have a problem.  I understand that there are many different things to look at, but I also have a job to do other than waiting for someone to look at every product in the store.  Like I've said before, I have much to say but rarely say anything.  This is one of those times.  I try to be as respectable as possible when dealing with people like this, but on the inside, I'm ready to pull my hair out and throw a case of liquor across the room.

Don't be a Looky Lou. Get what you want and get out.  If you're not going to buy anything, go away.  Maybe I sound like an asshole, but I don't really care. The End.