North Dakota Abortion

As you might know by now, I am from North Dakota.  Recently our legislature began pushing a new bill that would outlaw abortion past six weeks after conception.  This created quite the rousing for all North Dakota citizens.  Whether you are pro-life, pro-choice, or somewhere in between, isn't really relevant in this post as I'm not going to get into a huge debate about it.

The interesting thing I found in this story was the number of people on my Facebook feed that would openly post either for or against the new bill.  Again, don't want to debate, but I believe it should be up to the mother and only the mother.  I don't believe any slut that has had 9 abortions already should be able to get one either and I personally would never want to abort something that I helped create, but that's debating and we'll stay away from that.  The point of the post is why would you want to kill something that you created in your body? It isn't about if you can or can't do it, but why would you want to? What part of a person makes the decision for someone to kill a part of them that they took part in creating? 

As I go further into this, it's becoming harder and harder to not debate, but just hang in there.

Recently my sister lost her baby a little over two weeks before her due date.  My sister is over 30 years old and has been trying to have a child for awhile now.  How fair is that?  Someone who wants a child more than probably I could ever imagine, only to have nature decide that she can't.  On the other hand, there are thousands of people every day that forcibly end their child's life.

I understand there are many exceptions to abortion and every story is different, but I can't even fathom the logic behind that.  Someone that wants a child so much and is denied and someone who doesn't want one at all, only to have it destroyed.

It doesn't quite make sense to me but what am I to do about it?  If you feel like putting in your two cents to this post, I hope you do.

Been Awhile

Yeah...it has been awhile, but here I am again!

I've been away for a long time and I'm not really sure why.  I recently graduated from college (YAY!) and haven't been doing much of anything for the past couple of months.

By the way, if you know anyone looking for a recent graduate with a Bachelor of Science degree in Computer Information Systems, send them my way.

Other than that, yeah, nothing.  Thought I would at least throw something down tonight even though I don't have much to say. However, I have started uploading some new videos to my YouTube channel if anyone is interested.  http://www.youtube.com/user/33xacex33?feature=watch There's the link. While you're there you might as well subscribe.

Well, that's all I have for tonight.  Until next time, GET TO THE CHOPPAAAAAH!

Relationships

I'm pretty sure I've referred to relationships in this blog before, but I'm going to do it again, so deal with it.

Relationships...are just confusing.  All around.  Confusing. Friends, more than friends, not even friends, coworkers, family, it doesn't matter, relationships are just confusing.

The particular relationship I'm speaking of is a friendship I have with a female.  Now, it's not anything serious at all, just putting that out there.  It's just that I don't know what to think of the interactions I do have with this individual.

Here's the background story:

I was sitting at work a few evenings ago (on the computer of course) and I had a status on Facebook.  I'm just going to stop for a second and say life would be so much easier if there was more personal interactions instead of interactions over technology.  Anyway, this particular person, who I went to high school with, commented on my status, and we went back and forth for a bit, and then she pops me up on messenger and just gives me her phone number.  At first, I just thought "Cool, I got a number."  I didn't really think much of it, but then I started thinking more and more about it and here I am, confused.

I'm not trying to get all crazy over this or anything, but it just seemed really weird to me.  I had very little interaction with this person when I was in high school because she is a couple years younger than me and she gave me her number based on what?  That's what I don't understand and why I am so confused.  WHY?  What made her decide she was going to give me that number and tell me to text her?

I'm probably over-thinking the whole thing, but I like to think about things like this.

Relationships.

Well, that's all the story I have for you tonight.  Until next time, maybe it was the blue pill?

You Better Enjoy This

I decided I would throw up a post quick even though it is almost 4 am here.

I've been really busy lately. I'm in the middle of corn harvest on our family farm and taking 19 credits in college this semester so I haven't had much time to post anything.

It's been a crazy semester so far.  The first few weeks weren't bad, but now that I am trying to juggle 40 plus hours a week of work with 19 credits of school, I barely have time to sleep, let alone think.  Hopefully we'll be done with harvest next week though, and I can go back to a healthy mixture of school and booze.

I don't know who even reads these posts, but obviously someone does since I can see my blog gets views.  So I thought it would be a kind gesture to share what's happening in my life.  Nothing exciting, that's for sure.

I suppose though I should get sleep while I can.  Until next time, don't take the red pill.

Slender

Now that college has started back up again, I was bored tonight and was looking for something to do.  Lately, I've been hearing a lot about a game called Slender...

For those of you that don't know, Slender is an Indie-based game about a man named Slenderman, I guess. Basically, you start with a flashlight and have to walk around a wooded area in the dark and find 8 notes.  I got two...I'm not going to say much about this game because I didn't play it much so there's not much to say. I will say this though, I don't know what it is about the game but it is freaky as all hell.  Not like piss your pants scary, but like psychologically frightening. I'm sweating and all my muscles are tense from playing the game for all of ten minutes.

Maybe another day I will try to play it again, but for now, I'd like to sleep tonight.

Until next time, remember, "Always watches, no eyes."

End of Days

Summer is coming to an end...

That's not all bad.  Living in a college town it's actually kind of nice when school starts up again.  Don't get me wrong, I love the summer, but it's nice having everyone back too.  The school year means actually getting to see more than just the friends that hung around town for the summer.  Also, it means many more parties and the bars will be packed again.

I hate school though.  Honestly, if it wasn't for the potential to make so much more money, I would have never gone to college.  It's not that I was ever a bad student, I just hate going.  Nonetheless, it is coming... Hopefully this will be my last semester and I will go off and do an internship next semester, and then onto the real world.

Hopefully it will be a good year for everyone that is attending some form of educational institution, but I just remembered I still have to sign up for another class.  Until next time, let the beer flow and the books open.

Activists

These days it seems as though there is an activist group for just about everything from gay rights, guns laws, political, and the list goes on for days.  However, there is one group of individuals that really gets under my skin.  Anti-gun activists...

Coming from North Dakota, I was basically born with a gun in my hand.  By the time I was 8 years old, I already had 3 guns to my name.  Now, I could see how some people might have a problem with that, but if you teach a child how to safety and responsibly shoot a gun at a young age, that will stay with them until the day they die.

Anti-gun activists are basically trying to take gun ownership away from normal citizens. This, I have a problem with.  By no means do I think the average person should be able to own fully automatic weapons without some sort of special permit, but these people are trying to take away more than that.

I've been hunting since I was very young, since I could legally shoot and kill an animal.  Well, now this brings in a different group of activists, PETA. As far as I'm concerned, PETA can go straight to hell.  For the most part, what I use guns for is hunting.  I don't hunt just to kill animals for the hell of it.  I hunt for food.  Since I was very young I have been hunting and if I didn't hunt, that would erase at least 50 percent of the food I eat.  Although I do hunt animals I don't eat, those animals are predators of the food I do eat and predators of my family and pets.

Now, my list of guns include a BB gun, .22 rifle, paintball gun, shotgun, rifle, assault rifle, and pistol.  Are you going to try to take those all away from me?  I can tell you exactly what I use every one of those for and not one of them is used for harmful purposes.  You can argue a self-defense weapon is harmful, but if you come unwelcome into my home with intent to hurt me, my family, friends, or pets, I'm going to shoot you until I'm sure you aren't going to hurt anyone.

On the other hand, with the recent events in Aurora, Colorado, I can understand how some people would want to keep guns away from citizens.  However, you have to look at the person that was involved in this tragedy.  The guy was a mentally ill person with all the freedom in the world to buy multiple fully automatic weapons and 6000 rounds of ammunition.  The guy had issues, don't get me wrong, but he should have been red-flagged long before anything happened.  I mean really, you can't tell me his name didn't appear on some government screen with what he was buying.

To conclude this rather long rant, I have owned and been around guns my entire life and I have never shot at a person, been shot at, or been hurt in any way from a gun. If you take away guns, you're taking away my lifestyle.  Until next time, try to take my guns or my life, we'll see who comes out on top.

Stress

Stress.  People have all sorts of different triggers, levels, and remedies for stress.  What am I doing right now? Laying in my bed, by myself, writing this post, and absolutely jamming out to Zao (a metal band for those who don't know).

Maybe I shall go back a little here.  This week has been beyond stressful.  We started wheat harvest on my family farm, which I actually don't mind working on the farm, it just gets rather stressful at times.  On top of that, I had to shuffle back and forth between the farm and the liquor store because I couldn't get anyone to cover for me.  When I get stressed, I'm usually rather testy.  I've had a headache pretty much all day (mostly from the ridiculous people that come into the liquor store) and every little thing has been getting under my skin.

I'm going to stop for a second to throw this little tidbit in here.  Honestly, I don't know what happened in the last two weeks or if people finally just drank themselves stupid, but almost every other person I've had to deal with at the liquor store this week has either been completely shitfaced at 6 in the afternoon or a complete asshole.  Either way, I'm getting really fed up with it on so many levels.

Anyway, where was I? Yes, testy.  Every little thing gets under my skin.  I almost freaked out on my roommate because the house was a disaster when I got back, even though I haven't been here but 20 minutes in the last two weeks.  I settled for just going to bed and dropping it for now.  So that brings us here.  I am laying in my bed by myself and jamming to Zao because that is what I do to get rid of stress.  I don't like to be around people because when I'm stressed I get set off way to easily.  I like to lay in bed and wind down because it's the most comfortable place I know that is away from people.  Zao. Most people wouldn't find metal music relaxing or "stress relieving", but I don't think there is a better remedy for stress in the world.  Nothing calms me down more.  Actually, my headache is gone now in the 10 minutes it took me to write this.

I suppose I might actually get some sleep now, though.  Until next time, suspend suspension.

The Number 23

If you would have asked me 3 years ago where I saw myself in 3 years, there's no way I would have thought I would be sitting here.

Today, the 19th, was my birthday and I turned 23 years old.  I never really saw myself as some 23 year old billionaire or anything crazy like that, but I definitely didn't see myself in my current position.

I am 23, single, still in school, no idea if I will even find a job in my field when I do graduate, and just unsure of life in general.  I have confidence that I will end up where I'm supposed to be eventually, but life is not coming along as quickly as I hoped.

I'm not saying I'm in any hurry to have a stable job and family, but I envisioned I would have both by now.

Maybe I'm just a little down, but having turned 23 and spending most of the day by myself makes a guy think about what he wants in life, or what he doesn't have in life for that matter.

Anyways, happy birthday to me and all others that share this date.  Until next time, party like it's 1999.

Surgery Update

I finally had surgery on my knee yesterday at about 6:00 am.  After I arrived, they got my ready to roll, put me to sleep, and when I woke up, I was about ready to walk out the door.  Yesterday was a cake walk compared to today.  Yesterday, even though my knee was sore, I was pumped full of drugs and had a direct shot of Novocaine in my knee.  Today, on the other hand, is an entirely different story.  I woke up around 2:30 this morning to some soreness, but nothing compared to now.  When I actually woke up at about 7:30, I could barely move, and even now, with hydros in my system, I'm sore as all hell. 

Hopefully everything heals up faster then expected. I don't really like laying around doing nothing.  

Summertime

I think it's safe to say summer if finally here!

I've seen a bunch of posts and other things about "Summer Bucket Lists" and such.  Sure, there are things I want to accomplish this summer, but mostly, I want a little summer romance.  I've been single now for about 9 months and to be completely honest, I'm over being single.  Being single is a good novelty for awhile, but it's gotten to the point where I want nothing more than to be able to kiss someone goodnight and cuddle up to them and go to sleep.  I'm not saying I'm going to just settle down with the next woman that walks through my door, but I'm almost 23 and I'm ready for a steady relationship and a "marriage" type.  Maybe that sounds weird, but I've been in relationships pretty steady since I was about 15 and they never quite work out so I'm ready to settle down.  I'm ready for "the one".  Yeah, that didn't really help the whole "weird" vibe, but I speak the truth and that's what I'm giving you.

In the meantime, I just want to have fun this summer.  Maybe the perfect woman for me will just fall into my arms.

For now, I shall sleep, because I'm ridiculously tired.  I hope everyone has a great summer and until next time, don't drink the pool water.

People

You know, I never really had a problem with people until the last few years.  When I was younger and throughout high school, I could get along with just about anyone.  Now, I cannot stand half of the people I encounter on a daily basis.  I don't know what it is, I'm getting older and tolerate less, or people are just getting more stupid.  I feel as though people are getting more stupid though.

The downfall of my generation and the generation after is absolutely remarkable.  It's like people devolved into mindless morons. You can blame whatever you want on this devolution, because I don't know for sure what the cause is, I just know it is happening.  People are getting dumber by the second.

Anyway, that was just my mini-rant on people because I'm sick of them. Have a fabulous day.

Surgery

Pretty sure I forgot to mention this, but about 2 months ago, I tore my meniscus which is the cartilage in your knee between the 2 major bones of your leg and now there is a piece of my meniscus just floating around in my knee.

Only reason I thought about this is because I had my pre-operation appointment at the doctor today so I can have surgery June 11th.

I will say this, I hope I never have to have surgery again.  It's not that I am scared or worried to have surgery, but the pre-op questions asked by the doctor made me feel like I broke the law and the FBI was after me and investigating me.  The doctor asks so many questions and most of them just made me feel uncomfortable.

Anyway, that's what's happening in my life.  I forgot to mention it when it first happened because I didn't have a computer at the time.  I'll tell you what, worst pain I've ever experienced in my life.

June 11th I am having surgery, so hopefully that date will hurry and and get here so I can get my knee fixed and start going things I actually enjoy without pain again.

Until next time, don't eat the yellow snow.

Roommates

In a way, having roommates is like having a relationship.  There's that awkward beginning stage where you learn everything new about them, usually things that disgust you or make you wish you hadn't put yourself in that situation to begin with.  There's the clinger stage where you do absolutely everything together.  Then there's the breakup.

Living in a house with 4 guys for the last 2 years has been an experience and then some. Recently, last night actually, three of us decided it was time for our other roommate to leave.  It's been a work in progress for the last few months, but we finally decided to tell him he had to go.  To my surprise, I came home today and he had most of his stuff moved out.  I thought great!  I don't need to do anything and he's finally moving out.  With further inspection, I found that he decided to take along a bunch of stuff that wasn't his.  This is where the relationship aspect comes into play.  I felt like he was just a crazy girlfriend you wanted to break up with but were worried about how they would react.  Would he just pack his stuff up and leave or burn the house down in a fit of rage? It was up in the air for awhile there.  However, we're still trying to get all our stuff back, not very willingly I might add.  Although we have his part of the initial deposit that he wants, he's still being difficult in giving the stuff back.

I should add, as I mentioned before, I am very OCD.  All of my stuff has it's place and I don't care if it's been there 5 minutes or 5 years, I know when it's been moved.  For him to think he was going to get away taking a bunch of my shit was an absurd thought to say the least.  For those that know me well, they know I don't get upset easily, and I'm actually not that upset about this whole situation, just minutely frustrated.  However, I also know I control if he gets his money or not and there is not a damn thing he can do about that which gives me great satisfaction.

I really needed to say something about this whole situation.  I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders now that he's gone and it feels great!  We have a new roommate moving in on the first of the month that has been my friend for a few years so it should be a good change of pace.  Until next time, stay classy.

I'm Back

I've been majorly slacking on putting up any kind of post in the last few weeks.  This is due to the fact that I no longer have a computer at my disposal...The university I attend gives computers to all full time students and since the end of the semester I have not had a computer and that's that.

As I was saying, the semester of college is over, thank goodness.  As for the summer, lots of beer and fun is in the foreseeable future.  Being it could very well be my last summer in North Dakota, I want to make the best of it.

Not a whole lot else has been going on since I last posted. I'm still single, which sucks, and I'm over being single now.  Call it whatever you want, since school has ended I've really been girlfriend-minded.  No such luck so far.

Until another day, or possibly later tonight since I've been so absent from my blog, I'm off.

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Happy 4/20

Happy 4/20!!!

I'm going to make a bold statement here and say this will be the last year marijuana will be illegal in the United States.  Whether you're against marijuana or not, the legalization of this "drug" is coming sooner or later.

Assuming the world doesn't end this year (haha), I believe by 4/20/2013 marijuana will be legalized nationwide.

So for everyone out there celebrating, Happy 4/20! Have a wonderful day.

I Love You

Such simple words to say when you don't mean it, but when you do, it's entirely different.  I've said these words before and have meant them, sometimes it doesn't work out, but there may be only one person I would take it back from.

Which bring me to my main point.  There has been a woman that I have had my eye on for some time.  By no means do I love her, I mean it's not a phrase I take lightly, but there is something about her.  I don't know what it is about her, but just the thought of her drives me crazy.  She's pretty, seems cool, but there is something else, something I can't quite put my finger on, that just drives me wild.

You could say she's been somewhat of a crush of mine, ever since I met her she's always kind of been in the back of my mind.

Here lies the problem...

I've talked to her, quite a bit actually, but I've never told her how I really feel about her.  How do you tell a woman like that how you really feel?  I've been through my share of failed relationships and I hate rejection, but is being rejected better than not trying at all?

Maybe one day I'll work up the courage, and maybe I should just tell her right now...but we shall see what the future holds.

December 21, 2012

I know there is much speculation around this date, but I want to know what YOU think is going to happen on this (soon to be) historic day.

The thought that one day it will be historic gives you a hint of what I think.  I think we will survive to see December 22, 2012, well, some of us anyway.

I think that fateful day will be nothing more than hype, just like Y2K.  The day will be talked up so much and over hyped that people will be prepared for the worse.  People will riot, loot, and whatever else they need to do on their last day on Earth.  That is exactly what I think is going to happen, just people killing each other and destroying everything around them until they all realize that nothing catastrophic is going to happen.

Almost everything that has been speculated about December 21 has been proven to be false for the most part, but what do YOU think is going to happen?  Is it going to be the end of the world?  Is it going to be some miraculous event that will change the world forever?  Or will it just be nothing, nothing but hype?

The day is coming closer, and before we know it, it will be here.  How are you going to prepare?

Friday the 13th

Today is Friday the 13th...

I know I've mentioned my superstitions before, but I want to know what other people think of this mysterious day.

To me, I don't know what Friday the 13th really means, but being as superstitious as I am, I don't like this day very much.  Even though to most people, it's just another normal Friday, go to work, go home, celebrate another week done, I have a different feeling.  I don't know if it's just the lore behind the day, or the number 13 itself, but I get a really eerie feeling on this day and I make sure to be extra cautious.

Enough about me, I want to know what do you think about this day?  Is Friday the 13th just another day to you, or is it something more?

Unfortunately, I have to work until midnight tonight, when I would rather just sit in my house and do nothing tonight.

So tell me, what do you think of Friday the 13th and what are you doing on this day?